Seriously, I don’t know what am I. Temperamental? Contradicting? Emotional? Pessimist? After reading the article on How To Let Go Of A Past Relationship, I do agree that I was just being bitter all the time.
I worry about getting hurt again, I don’t want to get hurt. I question where have I gone wrong and what can I do to make it right or what could I have done better but this is the deathliest road to go through. I think nobody else have put me down? It was me myself, right? Nobody said I was lousy, he didn’t say that too, it was me. I didn’t love myself. So how do I expect love when I do not even love myself to begin with? I couldn’t forgive myself. Maybe being a perfectionist, this ruins me. I do not have to be perfect in everything right? I am just an ordinary human, an ordinary girl just like anyone one of you out there.
I will learn. I will be positive.
(3 months ago)